The past two days have been really slow and boring, because mah babeh has been kinda sickly and I she had to stay home from school, so I didn't see her for a long time! Thank goodness she came to school this morning, because one more day without her would have sent me into convulsions... >3... I am just glad she is feeling a little bit better! I don't like it when my baby is sick! I just feel kinda helpless because I want to help her so bad, but I know there is nothing I can do to help her, except maybe leave her alone so she can sleep, which she needs to do! The only bad thing about her falling asleep while we are together is the fact that whenever she does nod off, she feels bad about it because she thinks she is boring me. She just doesn't realize that she could never bore me, annoy me, or make me mad!! EVER!!!! And if she is sleepy, then I definately want her to rest, even if we don't have much time together, because I would rather her feel good and be healthy than be conscious while I'm there . She just doesn't realize how much I care about her, more than I could ever show her, more than I could ever tell her. She just means everything to me, and she is always on my mind, and I worry about her alot, but I don't mind worrying about her, because it is a good kind of worry, and I love her, nothing could change that!!!! I didn't sleep too well last night, so I had a lot of time to think, and the one thought that took up my mind the most was how incredibly uber-awesome it would be to end up with her, to wake up beside her every morning, and just see the sun falling across her face, and then her waking up, giving me a funny look because I just happened to be staring at her :3. It's a weird feeling, because I've never felt that way about anyone else, I've never been able to say that I could spend the rest of my life with someone and mean it with every single fiber of my soul. No matter how much time I spend with her, even if I spend an entire day with her, just watching movies or playing video games or talking, it only leaves me wanting her more, and the second I let her hand go and she closes the door, I just want to run back inside just for one more second, because I treasure every single second I can spend with her. The whole time at work (which seems to be a long long time, even though it's only a few hours) I just think about when I will get to talk to her next, and I just want to grab the phone and call her, but I can't, seeing as it is work and all... I just don't like being somewhere she couldn't reach me if she needed me... she could reach me, but I know she would never want to call me at work, even though my boss wouldn't care... I just want to be somewhere she can get to me if she needs my help for anything, no matter what it could be... I have never thought about anyone so much in my life, and all the thoughts of her have pushed so many horrible thoughts out of my head, things that I used to dwell on, bad memories, mistakes I've made, things I regret... just the mere thought of her is like a light in the darkness, when my mind is clouded by all the things that I don't want to think about, a picture of her beautiful smile chases all of that away and replaces it with thoughts of the love that I share with this beautiful young woman that means the world to me, and who I think the world of, and of how much time we have had together and all of the time that we will have together... seeing as forever is a long time :3(hopefully, but that is up to God, although I am more than willing). I just hope that we can learn about love together as time goes by, because I know that there is a lot more to learn, not just about love, but about each other. It's just about to be 3rd period now, so I'm gonna go ahead and cut this entry off. God Bless and take it easy!

-kryu-